My personal case
I remember as a chil, I lived with peoples who spoke a lot about cars. Indeed, few of these peoples could by a car. It was just a hype. Occasionally, someone could buy his car, then this one almost becomes king. He was the center of attention. Well, I don't know if the person or the car.
As for me, never crossed my mind to have a car. Having or not having a car was indifferent to me. I was not anxious about whether or not some day I could be the happy owner of an automobile. I even had dreams for my adult life. Profession, family, relationships, several things. But not car. To tell the truth I never thought very rational private vehicles in a metropolis. At least, not as it is used. Not that I have a peeve with cars. I always loved cars rides, to see the landscape moving away from the window, the wind in my face, the comfortable and soft chairs.
If I've never been radically opposed to cars, why I have lived for years and years riding in a bus? Nor do I know. As a young woman I was convinced that the cities should have quality public transport. Then came more reasons ( or excuses). One day I was going from one school to another, bouncing around in a bus with a bag full of gradebooks and proofs, clarity came to me suddenly. Oh my God, I need a car!
I didn't give up of my convictions, but I tempered it with some maturity. There is no convicction that can withstand thirty years of crowed bus! Especially when nothing is done under those convictions. While I was dating my utopia with public tranport the amount of vehicles on the streets was multiplied many times over, so today, I not only got to ride the bus but I have face traffic jams. And after the insight? Everything remains the same because I didn't get learn drive enough to pass the test of the Traffic Department and get my driver's license.
Hopefully this post is funny because the experience is some dramatic. Today, looking back I see it was my inability to balance idealism and survival. Now, in my opinion is better to do something to denounce the poor quality of public transport and buy a car. Good that I've environmental awareness, but I not didn't win anything for me or for the city only with tired legs. There was no merit in my almost indifference by car but unable to find a focus, a strategy to pursue my way of being and thinking. I'm paying a high price for nothing. Years and years under sun, rain and others difficulties. I had damage to health. I didn't politicize my choices and also I didn't to know to find a vein of claims for my ideas. This is only suffering, self exclusion of welfare, lack of self love, failure in self observation, find my own needs and take care of myself.
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